So in this post I just want to touch on a serious matter, don’t worry I will try keep it light. I haven’t really done a post like it, honestly I knew it was something I should address but even writing this now I’m kind of nervous and vulnerable doing so. Go easy on me.
OK, where to begin. I guess lately I just knew I wasn’t really feeling myself. In general I am quite upbeat and chirpy but recently though on the outset I was this way, inside I felt shit, for lack of a better word. There were aspects of my life I just wasn’t happy with. Now by no means were my problems big, they were issues I could solve, but they were issues all the same to me. Don’t get me wrong, I know a lot of people have it worse off than me, and in retrospect I am ‘#blessed’ to have what I have, be it my health, shelter etc. My problems began to get me down and it began to take over my emotions. It’s true what they say, that you could be in a room full of people and still feel lonely, that’s exactly how I felt. Once you overthink these problems, they slowly take over.
I am generally so open and honest with people, to a fault, I’m sure a lot of people will vouch for that, but in a way I was somewhat embarrassed to speak about what bothered me. Not that it was anything major but I just didn’t want people to judge I guess. I had said it casually to some people in passing or joked about it as if it wasn’t actually a real issue, to which it fell on deaf ears. I guess I knew that it would as I wasn’t serious about it but I just wanted to say it out loud. Just beware, be careful who you tell things to, some people may genuinely be concerned, others are just nosey.
So, one day I just opened up to a close one and a problem shared really is a problem halved. Instantly I felt relief. No we didn’t come to a resolution or anything but even just opening up about it I felt 100 times better about everything. From then, I knew to be grateful for what I have, and fight for what I want.
It became easy for me to see why people who feel down shut themselves off and slowly suffer deeper and deeper with their mental health. There is nothing scarier than battling your own thoughts. Looking after our mental health is more important than you know. It is only when you deal with it yourself do you realise the importance. I guess what I am trying to say is, there are people out there that are suffering on the inside, and if you are not one of those, be the one who offers an ear. Talking it out it crucial. Nobody should suffer in silence.
This is such a massive topic that I could write an essay. For anyone that is dealing with problems right now, I feel you. For friends, acquaintances, anyone reading this, if you are suffering and feel like you have nobody to turn to I am always willing to offer a listening ear.